Today while I was cleaning out some things I ran across the CD Aaron and I played at our wedding and reception. It's just a mixed CD of songs we put together. I popped it into the CD player in the kitchen and listened to it as I cleaned.
I honestly couldn't remember what was on it besides "our song" that was actually played during the ceremony. As I listened to the songs play I was surprised by how emotional I got remembering back to Our Wedding Day. I thought then that our love was the strongest and fullest it would ever be. After all, doesn't everyone have to "make it work" after so many years together? Is anyone truly still "in love" when they are old and grey?
In just 2 short months we will be celebrating our seven year anniversary and I can't believe how much things have changed. How sweet and blessed our life is together. How much our love has changed and grown. I don't get butterflies every time I see him, but the excitement when he comes home to us after being away all day at work is still there and pure happiness to have him home.
The children that have came has strengthened our bond too. We have shared so many special moments with the birth of each child, rainy family days spent on the couch, sunny days outside in the yard, bedtime with prayers and books, and they go on. But God is definitely the center of our family and the glue that holds us together. I am so thankful for the life God has blessed us with, the husband he prepared for me, and to be able STILL, after 8 1/2 years together, see the way he looks at me.
Praying that God keeps our marriage tightly in his hands for many, many, many years to come so that we can never fall apart. On our wedding day I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with this man, but now I can actually visualize our lives as the parents we are, the servants we are striving to become so the Lord can use us, the grandparents we hope to be spending time with family, cooking meals, enjoying Sundays for the rest of our lives and growing old together. Thank you Aaron for being the man I needed.....I love you dearly.
Friday, May 6, 2011
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Fertile Myrtle and Failure of "Plans"
So here it is, my first real post. This all started reading a friends Blog, Parenting Three (When Can I Pee Alone?), on "Would you rather be a 'fertile Myrtle' or have fertility issues?”
Fertile Myrtle here too! 3 in 4yrs, and we were only "trying" with the 2nd one. It seems that if there is even a chance, I'm pregnant. With the 1st I was taking BC. We had been married a little over a year when I was having trouble with BC and the doctor had switched me to something new. The something new gave me horrible headaches and I stopped taking it.....3wks later, guess what I had in hand? And it was positive....I was in total shock, wasn't this supposed to take a while?? Guess not, lol. This was a big FAIL to our first "plan" of waiting at least two years. A few wks after our 2nd anniversary Caleb was born, and wow did life change. I quit working and became a stay at home wife and mother. And since I wasn’t raised in a home with a stay at home mother, I had NO IDEA what I was getting myself into. I thought when I stopped working and had a baby that I'd have all the time in the world to keep a clean house, etc. That baby boy was a lot more demanding than I ever imagined.
Hubby and I knew that when we had children we wanted them close together, about two years apart so that they could be close and we could be DONE! That way too once they were in school I could go back to work. In our "plans" I would only have to sacrifice about 6yrs of not working and we were ok with that. I got pregnant right off, just as planned. There are 27 months between the first two boys. After Carson was born I started examining and questioning hormonal BC (was it good?), what God wanted with our lives and not what we had planned. Although always being against it, I felt really convicted to homeschool.....ohh no??? How is this going to work with our finances and "plans"? Can we really sacrifice this many years with me not working? I wanted to be like Jonah and RUN, but that really worked out for him, huh??
While all that was going on in my head........Am i supposed to have another baby? what? this isn't in the plans either. Am I completely insane? Can I even handle it.....I guess God knew best, because before hubby and I "decided", guess what I had in my hand....again?? Yep, pregnant again. 21 months between #2 and #3. God really blessed me in that pregnancy too (which I will definitely have to share with you all at another time, a lot of healing went on). I met so many people and learned so much. I know it's all for the best. While awaiting for my period to return, we are once again faced with the question....any more?? I have no clue. Some days I think there is no way I could handle it, other days I couldn't imagine there not being a baby around here...I mean I've had a baby here for so long now. But I'm so exhausted too, and what about when I have to do school too? Will I be able to manage? Do I really want to hear it again......"Don't you know what causes that?"...."When are you going to get your tubes tied?"........"You're having another?"......."Can you afford another baby?" They go on and on. Guess we need to really be fervently praying for God's will to be made clear to us. In the mean time, I'm trying to enjoy life as it is now.
Fertile Myrtle here too! 3 in 4yrs, and we were only "trying" with the 2nd one. It seems that if there is even a chance, I'm pregnant. With the 1st I was taking BC. We had been married a little over a year when I was having trouble with BC and the doctor had switched me to something new. The something new gave me horrible headaches and I stopped taking it.....3wks later, guess what I had in hand? And it was positive....I was in total shock, wasn't this supposed to take a while?? Guess not, lol. This was a big FAIL to our first "plan" of waiting at least two years. A few wks after our 2nd anniversary Caleb was born, and wow did life change. I quit working and became a stay at home wife and mother. And since I wasn’t raised in a home with a stay at home mother, I had NO IDEA what I was getting myself into. I thought when I stopped working and had a baby that I'd have all the time in the world to keep a clean house, etc. That baby boy was a lot more demanding than I ever imagined.
Hubby and I knew that when we had children we wanted them close together, about two years apart so that they could be close and we could be DONE! That way too once they were in school I could go back to work. In our "plans" I would only have to sacrifice about 6yrs of not working and we were ok with that. I got pregnant right off, just as planned. There are 27 months between the first two boys. After Carson was born I started examining and questioning hormonal BC (was it good?), what God wanted with our lives and not what we had planned. Although always being against it, I felt really convicted to homeschool.....ohh no??? How is this going to work with our finances and "plans"? Can we really sacrifice this many years with me not working? I wanted to be like Jonah and RUN, but that really worked out for him, huh??
While all that was going on in my head........Am i supposed to have another baby? what? this isn't in the plans either. Am I completely insane? Can I even handle it.....I guess God knew best, because before hubby and I "decided", guess what I had in my hand....again?? Yep, pregnant again. 21 months between #2 and #3. God really blessed me in that pregnancy too (which I will definitely have to share with you all at another time, a lot of healing went on). I met so many people and learned so much. I know it's all for the best. While awaiting for my period to return, we are once again faced with the question....any more?? I have no clue. Some days I think there is no way I could handle it, other days I couldn't imagine there not being a baby around here...I mean I've had a baby here for so long now. But I'm so exhausted too, and what about when I have to do school too? Will I be able to manage? Do I really want to hear it again......"Don't you know what causes that?"...."When are you going to get your tubes tied?"........"You're having another?"......."Can you afford another baby?" They go on and on. Guess we need to really be fervently praying for God's will to be made clear to us. In the mean time, I'm trying to enjoy life as it is now.
I'm So Not A Writer
I'm so not a writer, and actually, even the thought of writing something makes me nervous. My grammar isn't going to be perfect, I know my sentences will run together, I won't always use correct punctuation, I may leave out words...........and I've decided that I'm just ok with that. That's my life anyway, full of errors and always trying to learn from my mistakes.
So I know you are now asking yourself....why are you starting a blog when you don't like to write? Because everyone else is doing it! LOL, just kidding. Obviously! Those who know me, know I don't do what everyone else is doing....I tend to go against the grain....good or bad....I'm ok with being weird, lol.
It's just this simple, sometimes my Facebook status bar is just not long enough to share what I wanna share with you all. I'm not looking for a lot of followers, just want a place to collect my thoughts and share some things.
With all that said....Am I really doing this? It seems so silly from me. This all started because I wanted to comment on a friends Blog and it ended up being way to long. I had to cut and paste it to a Word doc and figure out where in the world to share it......and this is what I came up with.....whatever! Here we go friends (I know friends will surely be the only one reading this, and that's what it's for).
So I know you are now asking yourself....why are you starting a blog when you don't like to write? Because everyone else is doing it! LOL, just kidding. Obviously! Those who know me, know I don't do what everyone else is doing....I tend to go against the grain....good or bad....I'm ok with being weird, lol.
It's just this simple, sometimes my Facebook status bar is just not long enough to share what I wanna share with you all. I'm not looking for a lot of followers, just want a place to collect my thoughts and share some things.
With all that said....Am I really doing this? It seems so silly from me. This all started because I wanted to comment on a friends Blog and it ended up being way to long. I had to cut and paste it to a Word doc and figure out where in the world to share it......and this is what I came up with.....whatever! Here we go friends (I know friends will surely be the only one reading this, and that's what it's for).
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